Saturday, August 28, 2021

glory days

 About a year and a half later, Sean Forrester and I returned to the secret spot behind Mr. Z’s party store – without Wes Helms around the second time. In Wes’s place was Danny McGrath, another old St. Mike’s friend. We had just started our sophomore years. Sean and I were going into our second year at Dearborn Divine Child, while Danny attended University of Detroit Jesuit, an all boys prep school. That inconvenience had contributed to a growing distance between us during our freshman years, but drivers’ licenses changed the game, sophomore year. 

Sean and Danny both turned sixteen that September, and Sean’s license, specifically, broadened the horizons of my social life tenfold. His parents bought him a used, silver Dodge Stratus, and he drove me home after football practices and around town, on weekends. Anywhere Sean went, I went. With the windows rolled down, the speakers blasting 50 Cent, Staind, Blink 182, Papa Roach, sometimes we drove just to drive, to feel the wind in our hair.


Sean and I had played together on the freshman football team, and although he and I still bunked together at football camp before sophomore year, Sean was moving on to bigger and better things, athletically. Following in his father’s footsteps, Sean had switched positions from running back to quarterback during the transition to high school. In his freshman campaign, Sean showed enough potential that Mr. Forrester, who had recently taken over as varsity football coach, named him the starting quarterback going into summer camp.


A sophomore starting at quarterback for the varsity team was no small social matter at our high school. In addition to playing with the expectations his father’s legacy demanded of him, Sean was expected to orchestrate a pass-happy offense on a team that fully expected to compete for the state championship that season. Soon, college recruiters came calling. They sent brochures via mail and made appearances at games with their clipboards. At 6’3, Sean had a cannon of a right arm and an ability to scramble that made him a dual threat, but he had a heck of a lot of pressure on his shoulders. If he felt it, though, he never demonstrated as much to me; he remained ever assured — slightly cocky, even — and in that sense maybe he did have a little James Dean in him, or at least a little Randy “Pink” Floyd. 


Rapidly ascending towards status of high school god, Sean received invites to all varieties of parties and social gatherings. He knew kids from almost every nearby high school; fun-loving and charismatic, he never clung to a specific clique and everyone wanted to be around him. His sudden celebrity found me riding shotgun in the varsity quarterback’s ride, and I enjoyed the entourage fame. It was through Sean that I got involved with the Catholic Central and U of D guys who partied, and that was the general group we were with before our return trip to Mr. Z’s Party Store and the secret spot behind it.


Visions of Yzerman

Sunday, August 15, 2021

Bukowski on Writing


“Writing was never work for me. It had been the same for as long as I could remember: turn on the radio to a classical music station, light a cigarette or a cigar, open the bottle. The typer did the rest. All I had to do was be there. The whole process allowed me to continue when life itself offered very little, when life itself was a horror show. There was always the typer to soothe me, to talk to me, to entertain me, to save my ass. Basically that's why I wrote: to save my ass, to save my ass from the madhouse, from the streets, from myself.”

Charles Bukowski
Hollywood

Saturday, June 26, 2021




"You want to be a hermit you say but you don't do it much I noticed, you're just tired of life and wanta sleep."

Monday, April 19, 2021

Boogers

 

“Like the Rolling Thunder Revue, The Last Waltz was fueled by cocaine. 'It was ankle deep,' says Michael McClure, who read poetry as part of the concert. 'When I look at that film, I get a coke high.' Backstage there was a cocaine room, painted white and decorated with noses cut out of Groucho Marx masks. A tape played sniffing noises. Neil Young came out to sing 'Helpless' with a white lump hanging from his nose. The producers had to hire a Hollywood optical company to have the lump removed from the film.”

Howard Sounes
Down the Highway: The Life of Bob Dylan

Thursday, April 15, 2021

Texas Medicine

 


"Now the rainman gave me two cures
Then he said 'jump right in'
The one was Texas medicine
The other was just railroad gin
And like a fool I mixed them
And it strangled up my mind
And now people just get uglier
And I have no sense of time"

Dylan
 "Stuck Inside of Mobile with the Memphis Blues Again"

Saturday, April 10, 2021

"Two Riders Were Approaching"

 

"After sunset the wind had dropped. The night was calm and fresh. Toward midnight the voices began to subside, a cock crowed, the full moon began to show from behind the lime trees, a fresh white dewy mist began to rise, and stillness reigned over the village and the house.

Pictures of the near past- her father's illness and last moments- rose one after another to her memory. With mournful pleasure she now lingered over these images, repelling with horror only the last one, the picture of his death, which she felt she could not contemplate even in imagination at this still and mystic hour of night. And these pictures presented themselves to her so clearly and in such detail that they seemed now present, now past, and now future."

Leo Tolstoy
War and Peace (1869)

Wednesday, April 7, 2021

The previous autumn, the hunting, "Uncle," and the Christmas holidays spent at Otradnoe

 Natasha was calmer but no happier. She not merely avoided all external forms of pleasure- balls, promenades, concerts, and theaters- but she never laughed without a sound of tears in her laughter. She could not sing. As soon as she began to laugh, or tried to sing by herself, tears choked her: tears of remorse, tears at the recollection of those pure times which could never return, tears of vexation that she should so uselessly have ruined her young life which might have been so happy. Laughter and singing in particular seemed to her like a blasphemy, in face of her sorrow. Without any need of self-restraint, no wish to coquet ever entered her head. She said and felt at that time that no man was more to her than Nastasya Ivanovna, the buffoon. Something stood sentinel within her and forbade her every joy. Besides, she had lost all the old interests of her carefree girlish life that had been so full of hope. The previous autumn, the hunting, "Uncle," and the Christmas holidays spent with Nicholas at Otradnoe were what she recalled oftenest and most painfully. What would she not have given to bring back even a single day of that time! But it was gone forever. Her presentiment at the time had not deceived her- that that state of freedom and readiness for any enjoyment would not return again. Yet it was necessary to live on.


Leo Tolstoy

War and Peace